Friday, November 22, 2013



Approaching the holiday season I felt it was important to look back on this past
year. Thanksgiving was always my favorite holiday, a special time to be with my family. This holiday represents an opportunity to reflect back on the year, and to embrace being grateful for what life has given me.

Was this year perfect, not filled with anything that was troublesome to me ? Absolutely not, yet as I look around at some of the other tragedies that exist in the world, I know that my life is one that has been blessed.

At moments there is a place in my heart that feels some sadness, yet I remain grateful that my mom is still able to smile, and say my name. I'm thankful that her Alzheimer's has not advanced into the state of non existence. Hearing her words that she loves me deeply warms my heart. Yes, I miss my mom as she once was, but I can also appreciate what we still can share.

In August of this year mom entered a nursing home. A place I promised myself never to send her to. If I focus on this, I might feel broken hearted. Instead I choose to celebrate, that she is still able to be here, in whatever way she can. Excepting what is left of her life is the most that I can ask for.

I think about all that I have to be thankful for, I think of my mom, my family and my dear friends. I am grateful for my "new friends" that I have met through Facebook. We are a community that share in so many ways, as we are supportive, caring and understanding to each other.

I would like to wish everyone a happy holiday and hope that you too, will be able to reflect back on some tender moments, that you were able to share with your loved ones.

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Friday, November 15, 2013



It feels like ages since I was with my mom, yet it was only two months ago. At moments I am able to reflect back on my visit, and feel the warmth of her smile. Now that my next trip is approaching in three weeks, I am starting to feel excited . I yearn to see her , my heart hungers to spend time with her.

Observing her in these new surroundings does upset me, although I know that this is the best place for her. The above picture was mom and I sitting together exchanging touches and smiles. I was in deep thought of what once was, and maybe mom was reminiscing. When expressing myself to her she was able to follow along. My words and thoughts had to be short and not too complicated. Story telling is gone, for in her world, she is not able to concentrate.

While phoning the nursing home each day when I get lucky I am able to speak to her for a few seconds. Usually my calls end briefly as mom just drops the phone. One day she told me that she had to get off the phone because she was very busy. "Okay mom",smiling about her response. Mom was too busy to chat with me, as she hurried off the phone, to either do nothing or to wander the halls of the nursing facility.

Sharing this with my husband, he explained that she is probably distracted when they bring her to the phone. I know in reality that she would rather be speaking to me then roaming the hallways. Alzheimer's has removed any sort of reasoning from her. The world she lives in makes no sense, certainly not to me.

As she walks the corridors what is she looking for? Or maybe better, why is she wandering all over ? What  possibly can she be thinking ? Is she bored, or perhaps looking for a passageway to plan her escape? Maybe she is just strolling down "memory lane".

Today, I look forward and count the days until I see her, wanting to embrace her , hold her hand and share all my love for her.  When people ask me if she still knows me, I am able to smile and answer "of course she does, she is my mother and I am her daughter." For this I am so grateful..

 We share a love so strong and a bond that can never be broken. As always, I cherish these days taking nothing for granted, knowing that one day they will come to an end.

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