Thursday, August 6, 2015

MOM WHO'S HAND ARE YOU HOLDING?



MOM WHO'S HAND ARE YOU HOLDING?


"Mom the hand you are holding is that of your one and only grandchild." I can remember all the time you spent with Logan watching his favorite tv shows and movies. It's funny how I can still hear the two of you laughing while. Sometimes I'd wonder how you could sit and see the same movie over and over again. Yet that is what a loving grandmother would do for her one and only grandchild.

You no longer know who my son is nor do you understand that in six weeks he will be getting married. You met his beautiful bride-to-be in January as she came to Florida especially to meet you. "I know mom that you would be so proud of Logan, the man he has become, and would feel affection for the woman he has chosen to spend his life with."

When I think of all that you have been robbed of, I must confess it brings sadness to my heart. Alzheimer's is one of the most devastating diseases. It has the power to invade one's life and wash away a world full of memories.

Some people realize that every day is a gift and for me I hold onto each and every moment that I still can remember. I may never get Alzheimer's, yet one might say that I have a higher possibility since it runs in my family. First, your younger brother, and then you.

I know that going to sleep is final and realize that I would never be able to hear your voice, see your smile or hold your hand again. I question what is better. Being alive, locked away in your own world without any knowledge of your family or existence? Yes you seem to "be happy" or should I say "content". I wonder what thoughts, if any, may cross your mind only to disappear as quickly as they come.

I believe in my heart that you would not want to be alive if you truly understood about the world you now live in. For me if my world becomes like yours, I would not want to keep on living. So with much love how could I not wish for you, what I too would wish for myself. 

When Logan and Julia get married at the end of September, I will be thinking of you knowing how full of happiness and pride you would have been. I promise to have you with us, if only in spirit, to celebrate this glorious occasion. I love you mom today and forever.



MY MOM MY HERO book is dedicated to my mother and yours. 
Available on Amazon & Kindle & Audio.

http://www.amazon.com/Mom-Hero-Alzheimers-A-daughters-bittersweet/dp/0615773982/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1389797650&sr=8-1&keywords=lisa+hirsch

2 comments:

  1. Lisa,
    I’ve really enjoyed reading your blog over the past year. I stumbled upon it when got more focused on the problems that seniors have with mobility and injuries, and I was immediately hooked by our very similar story. My mother's name is Lisa, her father, my grandfather has Alzheimer's and my parents look after him. I really enjoyed this story because he's getting to know my niece, but most likely won't ever know my children.
    I currently have a project set to launch on Kickstarter called the step2rest (www.step2rest.com ) that will launch next month. As a nurse, now focused on helping keeping the senior safe in their home, I thought I might share it with you. Would you be interested in doing a interview/guest entry/review on your blog? My hope is that it would add value to your audience, especially since it’s in line with helping keep seniors in their home.
    If you'd prefer to review the final copy of the product, I would be happy to send you additional information or perform a demo with you privately. Thanks for your time, and I look forward to future entries about the problems seniors face in their home.


    Vince Baiera
    step2rest@gmail.com

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    1. Vince thank you for reaching out to me. Lisa

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