Before I begin my actual blog for today, I would like to share my phone call with my mom this morning. I'm feeling a little heavy in my heart for my mom(or maybe really for me). I told my mom that my brother Gil would be coming today to take her to lunch which he has done for several years .
My mom had no recollection of that, which again is the same way that she cannot remember anything (for over a year now). Ruthie started to tell me that she was dressed although she could not find her shoes. She was wearing shoes that were too big for her and had no socks on. I know that my mom has her shoes lined up next to the recliner chair where she watches her tv everyday. For some reason today she could not find them. After several minutes she was able to see them as I tried to assist her in finding them.
I then told my mom that she would have a very nice time with Gil and my mom said, "why, what do we do"? Mom I said, you and Gil go out and have a nice lunch each week. Mom then said you're right, I just cannot remember anything and with my famous answer, I say "mom you remember how much I love you, don't you"? Ruthie laughs and says "yes". I say mom that's all that really matters you can remember. Thank you for letting me share this today, so I may lighten up. I'm not sure why today her seeming confused and lost, panged my heart.