After hearing that a famous movie actress had passed away, I decided to mention it to my mom on the telephone. I said "mom Elizabeth Taylor died". My mom said "I don't know her, yet her name does sound familiar to me". I try to make light of the converstaion and say "well mom I didn't know her either". I reply "actually mom ,you are the only famous person that I know". My mom laughs and says "that and a token will get me on the subway".
I loved hearing her remembering such a "famous" phrase. Only several months ago, my mom still knew who the Yankees and Frank Sinatra were. Was this a bad day,or is she slipping more into the disease ? I do think that is what is happening ,although I try really hard not to think that way. Its funny, because I recall that after my mom and dad had moved to Florida, they asked me where do I think they should be buried.(NY or Florida) When they ask that question of me ,my response was that I didn't want to even think or speak about it. I was already in my thirties, and I guess I didn't want to even consider, that my parents could or would die one day.
Do we try to block certain things to protect ourselves? Is that what I might be doing ,once again with my mom. Probably, yet, I just want to hold on to the mom that I now have in my life. The wonderful relationship of a child and their parent. I choose to cherish all that we still do have, and not think about what will probably come next. Choices, we all have them.
My mom who has ALZHEIMER'S has become my hero. She touches my heart each and every day. I am also her caregiver. Sixteen years ago after she became ill I fell totally in love with her. It was not always like this, yet today, I am so fortunate to have such an unconditional love for her. My mom passed away February 5th, 2021. Although I am quite saddened I am happy that she is finally at peace. My newest book "Letter To My Mom" and my first book" My Mom My Hero" can both be found on Amazon .
Once my parents were pre-buying their burial plot and they asked me if I would be offended if they did one on top of the other as it was cheaper. I told them it didn't matter to me,a s they'd be dead at that point and who would care. I too was NOT wanting to talk about that. They went ahead and did side by side with 2 extra plots, and my Grandma is in one and there's one left for me. Luckily my 2nd husband had his own plot years before I met him so my having one already was no big deal.
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